These are the only 2 times I have ever gotten professional pictures taken of just me (besides my wedding)… one was in 2003, my senior year of high school, and the other in January of 2015.
In 2003 I was:
~17 years old
~Scared of food. I felt food was the enemy and was the reason I was “fat”.
~Ashamed of my body; I alway wanted to hide in big clothes.
~Pretended to be confident, but was really insecure
~Constantly on a diet… cabbage soup, Slim Fast, Atkins, fat-free… you name it!
~Exercised because I didn’t like the way I looked… it was more of a chore than something I enjoyed
~Was on prescription pills to help with my PCOS
~Cared a lot what others thought of me. Other’s opinions of me dictated my happiness
~Terrified of failure
In 2015 I am:
~29 years old (when this pic was taken), Mom of 3 kids (6 weeks postpartum in this picture)
~I love food! I now know it’s POWERFUL and nothing to be scared of, but rather something that does amazing things for my body
~I know my body isn’t anything close to “perfect”, but I love my body! I love it for what it does and am so grateful for it!
~Confident! I know who I am and although there is always room for improvement, I like the person I am
~I do not go on diets, but have a diet that is based on real food.
~I love exercise and look forward to it.
~I am completely off all my PCOS medication. Instead, I fight my PCOS with diet and exercise.
~Other’s opinions of me, good or bad, do not determine my happiness. I now know that it really only matters what I think about myself and what God thinks.
~I now view failure as nothing but an experience to learn from.
If you sound more like the person I was in the first picture, take hope. You can change. You can get to a place where you are confident and love yourself. Your past does not define your future. It’s never to late to decide to change and become a better version of yourself. Some things get better with age, and I like to think that I have! And so can you! Truly, I am always here to help if you don’t know where to start… because I have been there and I know how it feels <3